September is PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) awareness month, so I felt compelled to write a blog post on this topic, since it is something that I was diagnosed with during our infertility journey.

I had never even heard of PCOS until our first visit with our infertility doctor. During our initial visit, he asked me a few questions about whether I had struggled with acne (ugh, the worst), unwanted hair growth (thank goodness for laser hair removal) and/or irregular periods. Unfortunately I had to say yes to all of these fun things, except I hadn’t really realized that I had irregular periods because I had been on the pill most of my life. So until I went off the pill when Todd and I started trying, I didn’t really put two and two together. A quick date with “Wanda” (transvaginal ultrasound), and my doc was able to diagnose me with PCOS. He saw the tell-tale sign that my ovaries were covered with what look like a pearl necklace (or small cysts). Nooooo. I immediately asked myself….What does it mean for me and our ability to start our family? I googled the shit out of PCOS that weekend. Luckily, our doc was optimistic that once they were able to regulate my cycles with meds and get me to ovulate, we would be able to conceive. Luckily, he was right (our first month on Fermara and Ovidrel I got pregnant, and then again two months later on Follistim and Ovidrel), but unfortunately, we miscarried both of those times. One was a chemical pregnancy, and the other we lost at 8.5 weeks due to trisomy 16, so after many more failed attempts we decided to move on to IVF, which resulted in a viable pregnancy so far (19 weeks tomorrow!).

Not only was starting our family going to be more challenging due to PCOS, but there are lots of other really unfortunate side effects that go with PCOS like:

• Life-long skin problems (so not only did my teenage years suck from acne, adulthood does too. SUCH a bummer.) At least I know now that it truly is from my genetics. My faves during pregnancy have been CeraVe face wash (the one without Salicylic Acid) with my Clarisonic, it’s helped keep my skin in pretty good shape. I was worried it was going to be terrible with all of these hormones.
• Risk of diabetes. Women who have PCOS have excess insulin in their bodies because their bodies aren’t good a processing carbs and sugar. I think that I have a higher predisposition for gestational diabetes, and diabetes. (Noooo!)
• Weight gain, Difficulties losing weight. No explanation needed, this just plain sucks.
• Breast feeding may be challenging due to the hormonal imbalances caused by PCOS. Because women with PCOS have higher levels of androgen hormones, it can interfere with prolactin reaching its receptors (which trigger the onset of lactation). You can read more about it here. It breaks my heart to think I may not be able to produce enough milk for our little guy. But, on the upside, it will give Todd a lot of feeding/bonding time with our little guy.

So, basically PCOS causes hormonal imbalances that impacts a ton of things going on in your body. Luckily there are some awesome resources out there to help you overcome the challenges that come with it. For example, eating a paleo-like diet (high in protein, low in carbs/sugar) can be really beneficial for those who suffer from PCOS because it reduces the insulin levels in your body that cause some of these side effects/symptoms. I hate that I love sugar so much (but I do), and eating a diet rich in protein is hard for me (I don’t really crave meat), but I know it’s the best thing for my bod and to combat PCOS and helping me avoid diabetes in this pregnancy and later in life. This type of diet can also help with weight maintenance and loss. Except for when I was prescribed Adderall, weight loss has been such a challenge for me. I’ve realized that there’s an underlying reason for that, and it’s all up to me and the foods I fuel my body with that can make a difference.

Also, with the right doc and meds for your bod, you can regulate your cycle so you can ovulate, helping your odds of conceiving. It’s just important for you to have a good pulse on your body and what’s going on so you can see a doc sooner than later. Another bonus? You'll likely get a lot of eggs at egg retrieval because of the number of follicles you have, helping your chances of making that IVF cycle a success. Yay! 

For more support and resources you can visit the following websites:
http://www.pcosaa.org/
http://www.pcosfoundation.org/

And remember, you’re not alone! PCOS impacts 1 in 10 women. With the proper support, education and lifestyle changes we can combat PCOS and all of the yucky side effects that go with it!

Xo, Linds


Note: I am in no way, shape or form a doctor. I wish. This is not medical advice or anything of that sort. If you think you may have PCOS, consult with your doctor. Image credit @misspcos on Instagram,

The last couple weeks of pregnancy have flown by… I can’t believe that we are almost to the halfway point! I've loved having my fetal doppler for reassurance whenever I need it or want to hear our little guy’s heartbeat. Yesterday, I had my 18 week OB appointment and all went well. I had blood drawn for the second part of my genetic screening to ensure our baby doesn't have spina bifida. Praying that we get good results next week. 

This bump is slowly growing bigger (which I love!) but I'm becoming a little more uncomfortable. I’m so short that I feel like everything is getting all smooshed together. Luckily, I have found some super cute maternity clothes that I love from PinkBlush Maternity that are helping me feel more comfortable without making me feel frumpy. I was trying to stuff myself into my normal clothes, and that wasn’t working out so well. Haha. Pants are totally overrated these days and out of the picture (unless they're stretchy). Thanks to all the IVF/TTC mamas that gave me some great recommendations on my recent post on my ttc.babyjohnson insta account.

My sister-in-law lent me her coolmax pregnancy pillow too, which has been saving me big time at bedtime. I've had a hard time getting comfortable since I usually lay on my stomach to go to sleep and can't do that anymore. I am scared to lay on my back in fear of passing out after reading about my friend's experience at the doc! I just spoon this pillow and it's like magic. :)

Week 18-19 Symptoms:

• lots of round ligament pain
• acid reflux (just started this past week)
• slightly fatigued
• short of breath (like I go up on flight of stairs and feel like I’m dying)

I can't wait to feel the baby soon! I have an anterior placenta, so it likely won't happen for a few more weeks, but I cannot wait for that day to come. It’s going to be such an amazing thing to feel this little guy moving all around. Until then, we have our anatomy scan scheduled for next week, and I can't wait to see how much baby has grown. 

The pictures above are from 17.5 weeks, and are a little way for me to document this growing babe! This dress can be found here - I’m pretty sure it’s going to be a staple in my fall wardrobe since it feels like I’m wearing jammies. Now let's see how long I can stuff my feet into these Valentinos!

Thank you to Pink Blush for collaborating on this post. All thoughts and opinions are my own.