This past week has been quite the adventure! While I was able to let a lot of my anxiety about this pregnancy fade away after our 10 week appointment where we saw our little gummy bear dancing away, and then again with the great results from our genetic testing, I was feeling pretty good. However, this past weekend the anxiety crept back in. Right now my body is really starting to stretch and grow, and on Friday all these pains, stretches, jolts etc. were super active, so I called my OB’s nurse line and talked with Joyce (so sweet!) to make sure everything I was experiencing was normal. She suspected it was round ligament pain, but to call in again if it got worse. That night the discomfort got worse. It felt very characteristic of an ovarian cyst (which I’ve had my fair share of, thank you PCOS). My lower left hand side was super tender and when I moved, coughed, sneezed, and it was hard for me to get comfortable. Things stayed pretty active that night, so I took a Unisom to calm my nerves and try to get some rest. On Saturday morning I called the OB on-call and shared this with her. She said that unless I was experiencing nausea and vomiting, or that the pain got much worse, then I don’t need to go to the ER or urgent care – but could come in on Monday to hear the heartbeat for reassurance.
As the weekend progressed my anxiety continued to worsen. I’ve seen so many heartbreaking stories lately of women losing pregnancies around the 20 week mark and it’s scaring me that the same will happen to us. That growing fear plus I had these new aches and pains… and then I went down a rabbit hole and started comparing my bump to others, and just felt overwhelmed by everything. So on Monday morning my husband and I went in to hear little baby boy’s heartbeat. It took Joyce about 30 seconds to find it and it felt like forever, but there it was, beating away at 139 bpm – a heartbeat that indicates the baby is doing well and not under stress. I cried a few happy tears of joy. During our infertility journey, it felt like we’d never get to this point, at times this pregnancy just feels too good to be true. So glad baby is still in there growing away!
Joyce suggested that we get an ultrasound to just make sure that everything was ok, and to take a peek at what was going on. They were all booked at my OB, but referred me to another office in the building. They made me come with a full bladder, and I don’t think I’ve ever had to pee so bad in my entire life! When he started pressing on my tummy with the ultrasound probe I thought it was all over. Haha. Luckily, they only needed my full bladder for a part of the ultrasound and I was able to go to the bathroom before the in depth scan of baby. We got to see our sweet little guy for a good 10-15 minutes while he took a bunch of measurements. Baby was being shy and didn’t want us to see his cute little profile, but he was moving all around, and he caught up by two days! We were tracking about 1 day behind our whole pregnancy, and now we’re one day ahead. Yay!
I love being pregnant, and growing this little guy in my tummy. It is what I’ve been dreaming about since the day I say “I do”. However, after losing two pregnancies, I think that it makes you much more guarded and anxious, making this whole experience a little stressful at times. Hopefully after our anatomy scan in September, followed by our echocardiogram, I will feel a greater sense of peace and joy for the remainder of my pregnancy. Ultimately, I know it is all in God’s hands and I need to give it over to him, because I really have no control over any of this. Easier said than done at times with my type A personality. ;) Thanks for reading and following along!
The pic above is from our private ultrasound at 14w3d, Love this little guy so much! I can’t wait to meet him this winter. Th below bumpdate was created with the BabyPics App.
The past few weeks have been truly the best so far in this pregnancy. We found out that our genetic testing that we did through Maternal Fetal Medicine (MFM) was normal! AND that we are having a BOY! (We did the progenity test.) Finding out the gender has made this pregnancy feel so real, and has really helped me connect with our little growing babe. And, if you know me well, you know I love to shop…and ever since we found out the gender, I’ve been going crazy finding the cutest little dude clothes. I can’t resist but share some of my faves. It’s been so fun. I used to avoid those stores and baby stuff like the plague, but now I am finally, truly enjoying it. This is the most excited I’ve been, like ever. I am so preoccupied with our little guy, prepping for him, making sure I get all the right things – it’s been hard to concentrate at work…he’s all I think about!
My favorite symptom… this little baby bump that seems to have popped this week. I’m so in love with it. I’ve dreamed of having one of these for so long, and it’s finally (almost) here. Eek, I can’t wait to show this little growing babe off in maternity clothes. I found this brand Fillyboo Maternity – they have the CUTEST stuff. I can’t wait to see their fall stuff.
The main symptom that I have experienced is fatigue. I am also having a hard time finding food that actually sounds appetizing.. meat and veggies – forget it. They sound so gross to me right now. I am into pasta and bread…and I’m not complaining about it. :)
I also cannot believe how big my chest has gotten, these things are like HUGE. Like 1 whole cup size already. I went to Victoria’s Secret and got a new bra there without an underwire and it’s so comfy. The lady who sized me told me I was between a D and DD. What!?! I wasn’t expecting this… I’ve heard it’s going to get even crazier while nursing. That’s going to be like porn star status. Omg.
The only other symptoms I am having is what my hubby and I are calling “vagina lighting”. Haha. I keep getting these flashes of pulling or light cramping in my groin (hard to describe), but I asked my OB about it and she said it’s normal. The round ligaments expand all the way to the groin and right about now is when the round ligaments start to flare up. So the lightning flashes I’m experiencing are normal. Good news.
We went into the doctor to hear the heartbeat at 11.5 weeks, and then got to hear it again at my 14 week OB appointment with the doctor. She referred us to the MFM doctor for a level 2 ultrasound for our anatomy scan. We are doing that at 18w2d, and I can’t wait to see this little guy for that 45 minutes or so. Then 3 weeks or so after that appointment we’ll do the fetal echo appointment to ensure everything is OK with his little heart, as IVF babies have higher instances of heart problems. Hoping that all looks well in both of those big appointments.
We get to see baby today, too! We made an appointment at a private ultra sonographer – I can’t believe the difference that we’ll see between week 10 (9w6d) and week 14 (14w2d). He’s going to look like a little human rather than a little gummy bear. Eeeek! So pumped.
Todd and I made the decision to move to IVF in February of 2016, which gave us a lot of time to prepare for our upcoming IVF cycle (too much waiting time in my opinion but our clinic was on a long wait list).
For me, I wanted to make healthy changes as we prepared for IVF, but I didn't want to make dramatic changes that were going to be stressful. I tried to take a balanced approach. I think the most important thing is doing what feels right for you. Going through IVF is a big deal and does a number on your body, so listen to yourself and do what's manageable for you.
FEBRUARY + MARCH
(~3 months out - when you start maturing the eggs you'll get in retrieval)
MAY - our IVF Cycle <3
I fully believe that God was a part of each and every step of this process and it was all in His hands and with His timing. I am only sharing this because I know that prepping for IVF was kind of stressful and I wanted to be as educated as possible, while also doing what felt right to me, while whole-heartedly relying on God to deliver us our BFP.
Wishing all of my TTC sisters with upcoming ER's and Transfers the best of luck! XO XO
I'm Lindsay, a new mama to our little boy, Parker, after journeying through infertility. I started my blog as a way to channel my creativity and document our life happenings. I love to share my style for entertaining, home & for my little guy.